Meryl Langley's Testimony of the Exchanged Life

Meryl Langley is the International Distributor for The Intercessor magazine. This is her testimony of finding Christ as her life:

"I went to my first Zerubbabel conference in 1987, and it was really a miracle that my family and I got there in the first place. A friend invited us to go and, more than that, offered to pay for our children! If not, we could never have afforded to go. At that point in my life I was attending an Assemblies of God Pentecostal church and was very disillusioned with my Christian life. The goods did not match up to the advertisement.

"I remember saying to God, 'Look, it says here in the Bible that you are blessed if you hunger and thirst after righteousness and you will be satisfied.' Well, I wasn't satisfied and I told God so. I told Him I wanted His best and would not settle for anything less.

"I had tried so hard to be a good Christian: getting up early to have my quiet time before the rest of the house stirred, going to Bible study meetings, prayer groups, nights of prayer, tithing, and longing to be baptized in the Spirit and speak in tongues like my church friends were (and I wasn't). I thought it was because I did not live right in my own home, behind closed doors. I so wanted to be a better wife and mother, and I hated that I was not being submissive to my husband. But then, he drove me mad, too! My children will tell you to this day how I threw a wooden spoon at them (it missed), jumping up and down as I lost my temper! I certainly did not match up to the virtuous wife in Proverbs 31!

"I had been receiving The Intercessor for a short while and in it a lady named Page Prewitt had written an article entitled 'Alphabet Soup.' She wrote about life not working and how she found the answers in her life. I was gripped by her story and devoured every sentence and diagram. At that point it began to make only a little sense, but I just knew I was on to something that could help me out of my spiritual anguish.

"I had also stumbled across one or two scriptures that had really jumped out at me: Romans 7:17, '. . . but it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me,' and 1 Cor. 6:17, 'He that is joined to the Lord is one spirit with Him.' And what about 2 Cor. 4:7 which says, 'But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us.' No one can argue with that, to say nothing of Jesus' great prayer in John 17.

"So in 1987 I went to the Zerubbabel conference held in Nantwich in the north of England. I remember thinking, 'If only Page Prewitt would be there.' Can you imagine my shock and delight when that very Page Prewitt walked into that conference room in Nantwich! I need to say that immediately I recognized in her a presence (I now know that to be the presence of Jesus Christ) and feeling very timid, I was not sure I had the courage to speak to her.

"Page taught on body, soul and spirit, and again, I hung on her every word. I remember her speaking about love and how so many people think that when they meet someone and get married, it's like they are each one half of an orange, and they think that the other half will complete them. That was exactly what I believed, only my husband didn't complete me and neither did having children!

"When Page finished her talk, she sat right in front of me; I couldn't help asking if I could have a word with her. I told her all about how my husband would not repair our back door, and how upset I got with him, and how guilty I felt because of it, and why couldn't he be more like I wanted him to be? I told her how much her article had meant to me and how I was beginning to see there was no independent 'me' to live up to Proverbs 31. We chatted a while, and at the end of that conference, I thought I would never see Page again.

"A week or so later, I received a letter from America. Who on earth could it be from? It was from Page. I was absolutely amazed. Why on earth would she write to me? Not only that, on her next trip to the UK, she visited me in our home. That began a series of visits which I looked forward to more than I can describe. Each time Page taught on body, soul and spirit, she would add new dimensions, and I was just thrilled to listen to her. I always remember being at Cobham in Surrey, England one year and thinking as she spoke, 'So, no matter what or how devastating my feelings might be from whatever circumstances I find myself in, I am whole and complete because of Who I am at my spirit centre.' This was the most amazing, wonderful news to me since at times Satan lived out in my members such a negative, melancholy and depressed life.

"So, here began my journey to where I am today. As I look back on that first conference, I can see just how independent my thinking was. I thought there was some independent Meryl Langley who had to behave a certain Christian way and put myself through hoops to do the right thing. As the revelation of Christ in me as me emerged I began to tell my Christian friends and Pastor about it. He publicly argued with me that the old Meryl Langley was very much alive. In fact, on the next Sunday morning he preached his sermon on that very subject, saying once we were saved, we have two natures warring against each other and that it is our responsibility to make sure the new nature wins.

"What torment that belief had caused in my life. Afterwards my friends all came to me thinking I would be really discouraged and upset. I certainly felt hurt, but I knew (spirit) that the old Meryl Langley (my spirit joined to Satan) was out and that my human spirit was now joined to the Holy Spirit: Christ was in. I could not be discouraged and upset. My (His) life was proving the fact in that very situation. Christ through me was living in victory. I will never forget that occasion.

". . . Without knowing and living from this today, I do not know where I would be.

"If you have read this far, are earnestly seeking truth, and are desperate in your life . . . I pray that you, like me, will come to know Jesus Christ living His life through you."