The following is from Knight of Faith, Volume II, a collection of Norman Grubb's personal correspondence. This is what he replied to one writer who corresponded with him:
"What God has made so clear to me, and what gives such a basic place of relaxation, is that He actually lives His own life in me. That means that it is not I that love Him, but that He loves Himself in and through me.
"If I try to love Him, I am done. If I relax back, and recognize Him who is love living in me, then His own love just swells up in me, the love with which He loves Himself.
"And the same in every other respect. Whether it is wisdom or power or holiness or anything. It is a wonderful release to know that He expects nothing from me. Even the ability to recognize Him is really again He recognizing Himself in me.
"I find so many people over here [in America] living in condemnation. They feel their weakness, fears, reactions, resentments, passions, etc.; and they haven't realized that they were made like that as humans.
"To feel such things is not wrong, but it is merely human. The only wrong in us was the spirit of self-love (Satan), who used to live in us, united to us and motivated us. He used our faculties and appetites for self loving ends.
"But that was all finished in our identification with Jesus in His cross and resurrection, and in place of the self-loving spirit there has come to us the self-giving Spirit.
"We just remain a bundle of human capabilities, appetites and faculties, but thank God, now the motivating Spirit within is that He should express Himself through them.
"Often we get pulled the other way, into the illusion of our separate independent self, and back we are in Romans 7; but thank God we can get back in seconds through the Blood [of Jesus], and live in Romans 8.
"Wonderful relaxed, yet dynamic life. Rejoicing in our weakness, rejoicing in His strength."
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